Disease from heart

Finally , I figured out I had BFD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and depression

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity. A depressed person will experience or display some of the following:^[1]

§ Persistent sadness, anxiety or feelings of emptiness

§ Feelings of hopelessness, helplessness and/or pessimism.

§ Feelings of worthlessness or guilt

§ Contemplating suicide or suicide attempt

§ Problems concentrating, remembering details and making decisions

§ Fatigue and loss of energy

§ Persistent aches, pains or digestive problems that are resistant to treatment

§ Irritability or restlessness

§ Insomnia, waking early, or excessive sleeping

§ Overeating, or appetite loss

§ Loss of interest in activities that once were pleasurable (e.g., hobbies, sex, social activities, etc.)

Haluuu 115002 17072010

U know you make me suffer...

I really wish u don't play my feelings when U first message me, make me happy in 60 seconds. then I the one must wait for your replying? why U do that to me and make me sad for 60 minutes.

If you are busy just go on, do not message to comfort me.

I only receive your message when U are missing me. I willing to hear the truth than pain.

ME&YOU is impossible or YOU&ME is not possible

Mood = Bored+Heartless Day=Sad-day(Saturday) Place=Hostel

Every night I been thinking what If this what If that happen If we are .... Positive nor negative . All I had think , and because too much thinking

now I tired . I tired to imagine If you also feel the same way I feel. But the more I think the less I trust u, the more I miss the less my feeling for you. What all this means? Am I just too easy to give up and ready to let you go? Don't ask me. I don't want to answer.

My mind is now more clear and logical. It been so long you never text me neither chat in Facebook.

I tried to text you and tell you how much I miss you so much. But I didn't. I afraid I only received

your coolness, ignorance. This is only hurt me. The more I text you the more I lost my love

to you. So this is the best choice to keep this feelings inside me. I will never text you first.

Sometimes you text me before I get to bed. Although tomorrow I must get up early , I happy to

reply your message and do not care what time is it. As long U with Me on that night. You said you

got insomnia, could not sleep wanna find someone to chat to. Me. Me is the somebody to you.

I don't know what my real status for you. A normal friend or a little girl that U like to call.

My heart get sour and bitter when you call me 'girl' , because its truly describe I am not someone

special in your life. Like I do.

I love your name. Your name is so special and sounds nice. First I fall in love to your name

then your personality, the way you thinking, the believable to God, your generous, your passion

with baby Nikon. I love everything about you. Can You feels my love? Can you respond to my

heart?

I can accept whatever your answer. Just answer me. I hate this hopeless feeling.